My partner who is a drug addict decided it was time to go back to rehab and that this was it. This time it had to work because he has no family left. Just me and a few friends. On Feb 7th I dropped him off and the staff let me know that we would not be able to speak or see each other for 45 days. Those were awful. I wanted to be there for him but I had to focus on me. At the end of the 45 he finally called and I ad thrilled. He sounded more aware and willing to put in the work. He reassured me that we were still us and that there was work to be done. I made sure to reassure him that o was behind him 100%. He explained to me that from that point on he was allowed to call me one a week for 10 minutes but that he had fought and got twice a week. 3 weeks went by and right when suppose to call to let me know I could finally go see him he calls on a different day and time and ends our relationship. We had spoken the night before and everything was fine so I as confused and devastated. He sounded scripted. Not like himself. I asked him questions and he wouldn't answer them. He kept saying that he wasn't closing the door on us and everything would be ok. He was mid sentence when I heard a female voice, director of this "house" im sure say "thats enough" abd must have taken the phone from him and hung up on me. My calls after that weren't answered. You can imagine how I felt. A week goes by and I call him crying and told him how I felt. How mad and resentful I am that he didn't give me a chance. That he choose to listen to their "advice" and made me feel unworthy of being part of his recovery. Our relationship wasn't getting on the way. Our break up was because all we did was fight from that point on. After finding out in avg how much money per day he makes this facility it became hard to believe anything other than hes just an ATM and they need to keep him there and so they made sure no one can claim him. he's told me that from now on his sponsor and support group decide everything for him so they decided to cut me..Eventuall he said that he didn't know if he ever loved and was confused and later on he said he wasn't gonna call me anymore because he didn't need to hear how upset and emotional I am. I haven't heard from him since then. Every time I call he's "unavailable" and ll I can do is leave a message. I'm sure I already lost him and I will forever blame it on this facility and the corrupt leader behind it. She's destroying people's lives. She choose for us the fate of our relationship and he let her. They made sure I felt like I don't belong in his life anymore. That now that he is recovering he's better than me and I'm basically trash. He doesn't care as much as he says he does or he wouldn't ignore me. That makes him a hypocrite. Idk if I will ever see him again. I doubt he's still interested in me or feels anything. I have no choice but to move on. I'm hurting more than I ever have. I feel used and betrayed and sad. I'm very depressed. So much that I contemplated suicide. I just can't believe that this is how this facility is helping him and other people's. This is all the complete opposite of step #9. A big part of me does feel like it's all for the money and they don't give a shit about him or who else they hurt. They destroy families. This isn't right and I'm furious. I have to keep moving forward and remember the serenity prayer now more than ever. Has anyone ever been through something similar?
Tonioblue
